The thought was, trying to understand what cycling looked like at this part of my life. Change. After moving away from the foundation of my love for cycling. After the crit crash what did my desire to race look like? Trying to find my balance of being a husband to my partner, dad to the most amazing thing in my life, prove myself in my new job, and find what I wanted out of cycling.

I thought I would turn the camera off & let the blog be. I thought I’d attend a road ride a week and maybe hit the single track on the weekends. The road riding I did in 2017 in Dallas was a mixture of really enjoying some of the group rides but others had left a bad taste in my mouth because of an end over end bike crash at 30 miles an hour. The riders in Dallas are many, lots of smiles, lots of room for me to find my place among them. But with many, comes a few knuckleheads. A stark difference from the 20 or so team mates I rode regularly with in Bloomington. A comfort of knowing my best interest were in mind of everyone pedaling. Another thing I am still trying to balance is in Bloomington Illinois I could be on singletrack in 15 minutes from home where as in Dallas my favorite trail called Northshore is 45 minutes to an hour each way for me. That makes tight for time afternoons and weekends all that much harder to make work.

I then decided to write the words All Cycles End. I didn’t want to fake it. I didn’t want to put on a face that nothing had changed.

The rest of the year was “normal”. Finding our pace in a new metro city. I dug into work and my skills as a software developer. I over worked. I have a bad habit of overdoing. While the rest of life was pretty good I wasn’t happy with my cycling. I made a few road and mountain bike rides, but a lot less than I intended too. Missing mountain bike trips with my amazing friends because of my unhappiness with cycling and my fitness was the hardest part of it.

As I look back on 2018, I’m not happy with the changes I made in my cycling. I want to try and find my way back to a balance that adds happiness to my life. Words are the easy part. Time will tell.

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4 thoughts on “2018

  1. Thanks for posting, it has sure been a while!

    While I am in college, I have intentionally put cycling to the side for now. It is a temporary adjustment and what is most important is that you have a goal of where you want to be. I find it helps to have a utilitarian standpoint, just pick your battles and put your focus on where it matters most. I am sure you will get to that point! I wish you the best of luck and I look forward to the updates you will be posting on the blog!

  2. Would echo the previous comment – if a recreational pursuit becomes too hard, the pleasure is lost.You can always come back to it when things change. Find another outlet that better suits. For me; cycling replaced surfing for about 10 years, as time away from family in surfing was far greater, and I could cycle with my partner & kids. Lately, my 16yr old has shown an interest in surfing so I find myself back in the water, which has been good for body and soul.

  3. The same thing has happened to me in each of the decades of my life and I am nearing 60 now. The take away….this won’t be the last time you find yourself away from cycling only to find your way back. It’s a part of life because there are always people, commitments, new passions and events that are just as important.

    Consider that being away makes you appreciate and value cycling even more and that my friend should keep you cycling most of the rest of your days on this planet.

    My best to you.

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